your true self

 so i remember about a year and a half ago, when nolan was two, remarking to my mom and ben that it seems like so much of one's personality is totally there at that age. they are these miniature adults, with lots of opinion and preference, and their own style. shortly after that, i don't remember where of course, i heard from a reputable professional in child development (probably on oprah, where i hear a lot of my info :) that people truly are almost completely who they will be at the age of pre-school. this isn't to say that life's experiences don't greatly shape and impact you. we can all think of tons of those that have come along later, but that when you think about, we are who we are at 2 or 3. i think it's fascinating, and when i think back, i was myself at a young age. people who've known me for years and years will tell you that i was still the same heather in childhood. today, as i watched my little man, who is now almost four, pull his fire engine float in the mini-fiesta parade, and then run around the gym, i was so proud of him. i am so proud of this little person that i get to raise and share. i am proud of his confidence. he really thinks he is capable of anything. i'm proud of his outgoing, charming nature. he can talk to almost anyone, and they undoubtedly will remember his name. i am proud of his sensitivity and empathy toward others, and his mature way of looking at things (when he is not having a three year old meltdown!). this suddenly hit me, that as a mom, this is the major reward. staying at home does not earn me the big bonuses or recognition. nor does it tell the world that i am a power-player, but to me, the bonuses are the joy of raising a good person, and beyond that, a delightful person. i wouldn't trade it for any job in the world.